I'm halfway there and not near as far as I hoped I would be. I am learning that this is a journey. I have to remind myself daily that I didn't get here overnight and I won't get where I want to be overnight. If I did get there overnight what would be the point? I wouldn't appreciate it and be proud of myself like I am right now. Don't get me wrong I have bad days where I feel like I'm failing, taking way to long, or not putting in enough work. To be honest today has been one of those days! I have days I throw in the towel and say I'm not capable BUT I am learning to love me through this process. I'm learning that I am strong and capable, that I can do the hard work. My whole life I've always been willing to do the hard work for others. To help them and encourage them however I can to push them to be their best self. What I haven't done is that for myself. Why do we do that to ourselves? Why do we believe the lies that we aren't capable, strong enough, smart enough, or worthy? Yet we teach our kids that they are strong, smart, capable and worthy. We expect them to believe those things and live with the confidence that they are those things. Yet we walk around every day not believing them ourselves. If you are anything like me you even speak the lies out loud about yourself. I'm to fat/skinny, I'm to short/tall, I'm not smart enough, pretty enough, strong enough. Well I am tired of the lies, I am tired of treating myself like I'm not enough (fill in the blank________). I'm tired of treating Abba's daughter like she's not worthy of all the things he created her for. Have I gotten defeated because I haven't reached the place/goal I wanted to in 6 months. Yes! But I am still moving forward. I might not reach all my goals by my 35th birthday but I can promise you this I WILL NOT QUIT! I will not give up on myself I will not continue to believe the lies. Because I am enough and I am worthy! YOU ARE ENOUGH AND YOU ARE WORTHY!!
Now let me step off my soapbox so we can recap the past couple of months and discuss plan/goals for this month.
Short recap!
May and June were both very busy months for us. Lots of baseball/softball, vacation, a surprise party, more baseball, and the Surge women's conference. Our youngest son was picked up by the baseball team that's going to state so he's had extra practices and we are preparing for those tournaments. We have two birthdays this month and that's not counting my moms or my nieces and nephews. It's also stupid HOT... That makes running hard. So I haven't gotten all the miles in that i wanted to for May and June but I haven't quit.
Short goal list!
For this month I plan to focus on increasing my protein and decreasing my carbs and sugar. I plan to get a gym membership so that I can workout indoors while its so hot. I do still plan to train and run. I would love to hit another 5k this month under 40 minutes and build some muscle in my arms and core. As a family we plan to start school back after all the baseball season is over. So I will be working to get all of that organized and ready to go.
That's my short recap/goals so as promised and since I missed last month here are my updated pictures. Nothing much has changed on the outside but my mindset is changing and that counts!
Not sure I'm digging the new leggings but my black ones had to go in the trash.
Closing thoughts! Believe in yourself! Treat yourself the way Yah has called us to. You are strong, you are capable, and you are worthy! Fight for yourself!
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